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at 11:47 PM

I'm sorry guys.. I know I suppose to go out with you guys but I'm just not the type of shallay person... and its like hell far.. I know its irresponsible but you know...Im sorry. And they say friends wont force them to do things they dont like... you guys are my friends right?

Im sorry for everything.. I know I maybe the cold and wet and soggy blanket but Im sorry.

see you guys next year. Happy memories.. love you guys alot

Labels: I'm sorry

at 1:27 PM

Few days back was my last day with 2e9. As usual, Cried. I'm gonna miss them!Never had I been this happy in my school life.Everyone treated me well and regarded me as a friend.And I love everyone too.I feel so different in the class, as in i really felt that we're like a big family.

The last day, we ended up cleaning our classroom. And after we finished, I was sitting at my place, looking at the classroom.I've spent 2 years here in this wonderful place.Although its dusty and dirty most of the times but we've survived through. Cant believe 2 years just passed like this. I looked around every single corner of the classroom. I could still remember 2 years back when we all first came to the school. I was friendless. I had no friends, I had no one. We came to this classroom, and our journey began. 2 years... We spent 2 years getting to know each other.2 years later,we have to be separated. I know maybe some of us will end up in the same class but its all different. There's no more familiarize faces in the classrooms

And irritating laughters all around!

I know I'm gonna miss you guys so much.

Labels: My last day with 2e9

at 11:46 AM

As expected, my results sucks. This are my results

Eng - 57
HMT - 74
Maths - 64
Science - 51
History - 50
Geog - 57
Lit - 65
M.E.P - 67

Yea, thats how bad it is. But never, its all over, should concentrate on resting this few days. Funny yea? Today is Friday and i'm sitting at home cause its E-learning day today!!!Love E-learning day although my darn internet connection pisses me off.

Anyway, I'm in love with 陳漢典now! I wanna type the next part in chinese, cause I dont really know how to say it perfectly in English and I hope he sees this! Haha!

我覺得陳漢典做到了一個藝人應有的本分。就是取悅觀衆！起先對他沒什麽感覺，就覺得他只是在悶鍋裏扮演小張囯字可是漸漸地，儅看到他在康熙裏的表演時，我真的覺得他是明日之星，後來就發現我已經喜歡陳漢典了。

他是個很努力的藝人，大家都說在他身上看到了‘郭哥年輕時候的樣子’ ，他很有禮貌，可是他的禮貌不像是現在那些新人裝出來的那種，是真心的有禮貌。他也很把握機會，儅康永或熙娣丟話給他時，他絕對能立刻接住然後讓大家捧腹大笑。大家都看得到他的努力以及實力。他的模仿功力真的是嚇嚇叫哦！模仿的都是冷門任務可是都模仿得惟妙惟肖。尤其是DJ Dennis,Machi 大哥，還有還有最厲害的菜頭。每次看他的模仿表演都不會另我失望，我每一次看了都很開心，都笑得合不攏嘴。

陳漢典最棒了，我相信以他的努力和態度，一定會很快成爲明日之星的！！我愛陳漢典，最近老是想著他，希望有朝一日可以見到他，我就心滿意足了。我真的好喜歡陳漢典哦！！！陳漢典，我心目中的大明星！

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at 1:18 AM

Ok, I just wanna say that I'm not hating my family ( the last post ), I'm just angry at that moment but I never say I hate my family. They're nice at times too.. =) Daddy buys nice food for me and gives me my ATM card,nag at me in a oldish funny way, works for the whole family. Mummy always calls me and irritates me =), buy hello kitty stuff for me and many things that I want and send it to me. My big Oppa is also nice too, he lives with me, he buy tickets to David Copperfield and Zhang Hui Mei's concert for me,he buys me my MP3 and many things I want. Second Oppa also treats me nice, he talks to me, share troubles and also send gifts from oversea, and also ride me everywhere in his bike when I'm in Taiwan.

How can I hate my Family?? They are nice to me cause i'm the youngest. Maybe I feel tired at times but we're still family. We have the same surname, and we're all having the same bloodstream.We will still help each other out no matter how much we were angry with each other. We're family. Isnt that what family is all about?

Its like 1:24am now, so bored... and oh yea, I got back my results. How suck can it be? I score 57 for my English which I dont really care cause I always suck at it. And like 50 for my history when I studied crazily for it!!! But was still ok cause there are people who score 28 and 30+ so I'm still that average. And M.EP, what a sexy subject huh? Scored 67 for it. Bwahaha, I never expect I score higher for mep then others... hope everything turns out well. Better marks... and going to watch tv, ciaox

Labels: Clearing Doubts

at 10:49 PM

This is the first time in my own entire 14 yrs of life I've felt so useless. My brother made me felt that i'm useless.Just because he is at Pulau Ubin with his colleagues, and cant do anything about it, he asked me to do. Ok fine, I'm willing to help but just that hey hey... things arent so easy. Its not that I dont want to help, I want to help and I tried my very best but guess what people, the internet connection was all ruined. Ok, Its like not working even if I shake it, I plug it in and out and finally I see the glow of light in my internet connection and so I quickly on the computer and all the while but brother was making the sound " tsk.." impatiently. I was there trying to fix the damn internet connector thingy and he was like " I always can do one what,why you cannot do. " and scolded me. Then my maid was feeding the rabbits and she was like busy and I called her over to help but she went back to put the water for my rabbits properly and then great, my brother was like " call her back, I thought she helping you! " in a demanding tone.

Ok, so whats up bro? Feeling unhappy cause you're stressed up by Dad? Whoa hoa... man, am I not stress? Am I not stressed up by Mum? You think I dont feel stress when Dad is working out there late at night,striving to earn money. Ok, I know you do more things for him then me, you're capable of computer,does it mean that I must be capable in computer too? Sometimes I just cant stand you. Grow up man, I'm 14 already. And you still joke around with me like I'm an 3 year old kid. Once, ok, maybe its funny ,twice, getting a little annoyed, thrice, really want you to keep quiet, fourth time, Im feeling pissed. Ok ,but you see, you dont do ONLY four times, ok, you do like thousands of time and its like EVERYDAY. Evening you eat, you kid around idiotly, all the while. And you would just say " remember when you're young,you always run around like that with your shh shh bolster and ahhh!! " and he start screaming like a mad kid. Ok, tell you what, his 25 this year. And the crazy things he do is not only this ok.This is only the minor one! And I always wanted to tell him that " hallo?you've already said, you've said " remember last time when you were young" , ok bro, you've already made it clear that I was young and it was LAST TIME. so why dont you live in this century, ok , stop living in the past!!!"

Few years back, I was thinking ok, Family ruined, Ok at least no as bad as those in dramas. Maybe fine, its ok, I still can live like how I was when i'm young when mum and dad used to give me surprise presents and said its from santa and would make big delicious meals and would play with me all the times. Ok , few years down the road, Realise that whoa people, its way different. There's no nice meals, I face my maid everyday, I dont get to see my parents everyday, my dad is working in other country and my mum hates for betraying and stuff that they dont wanna tell me and I think its all history so my mum went back to her country and yea,there left me and my bro's here. Firstly I thought,ok, maybe they need time to cool down, whatever, sooner or later its gonna be fine. Ok, what bullshit crap I've just said?? No! Ok reality is, they hated each other and the reason is that this is an arranged marriage. I was born , first 5 years of my life was peaceful and comfortable and 6 yrs old onwards, my life totally changed. I was so young then and I had to trouble for so many things. I had to trouble things more than what my age should be.

8 yrs down the road,I change every single year. Every year, ok not every year, every few months, my parents would make something big for me to worry. Firstly, my dad would stress up my brother and my brother would be like darn piss when I talk to him. Then my dad would stress me up and tells me all those working nights and tiring days. Ok ,I listen. Then my mum would be pissing me off by asking demanding questions and come back and forth suddenly. But funny things, she doesnt want to live in this building. HAHA!! Have you ever heard? A mum who doesnt want to live in the building she used to live in??

Ok people, I know you're my parents so I respect you and never fight with you or what. And that doesnt mean I dont mind, ok, I still mind just that I dont you guys to feel whatever about me, and so I do whatever you guys want me to do. Actually you wanna know the truth? I'm tired! I'm sick and tired of you're quarrellings and grumble. I'm tired... I dont know how long I can withstand the stress you guys are giving me.

Brother always scolded me when I spoiled the computer and doesnt not how to FIX it. Ok, funny story, do I learn computers? and do you really want me to ruin the whole computer and spend another few grands on a new one? Believe me, I want to do so. But hello here buddy, you are the one who learn computer since young, and isnt it your job to teach me patiently. And hey you know what,the truth is, I DONT CARE. I seriously dont care how to fix a computer. And you just get so impatient. And when I really want to talk to you, you just keep joking around. you're TOO ALOOF sometimes and you dont know when to be serious.

If you want to know the truth. I'm very tired everyday. I know I cant choose which family I want to be in so I accept the fact and do whatever you people tell me to and obey you guys. But who doesnt want a nice and sweet and warmth family? Who doesnt want to live with open minded parents and siblings who understands you and stand up for you. I want it too...I desperately want it. But I know I dont have it, so I accept you guys. I dont go around being EMO CRAP and telling people how my life officially sucks. I be cheerful and happy everyday so that I dont get EMO and let people around me to trouble things about me. But if I can, How I wish I can go to school and let out all my feelings. But ok, I cant, I already created how I am in school and I dont know how to change to express everything I'm feeling. I'm not who I am if I do this...I hide everything inside and dont let out easily.

Everything is hiding in there, and I dont want to let it out. But the more you guys give me, the lesser I can withstand. Believe me, there are more things I have to trouble. Not only my own family, my relatives, money, life, bills and future. Ok, I have to admit, I'm not as rich as before already... everything changed. my condo is now this apartment. I cant afford those things I used to can afford anymore. I went back to a normal life.

So...just expressing whatever I've just felt here. In order to make me feel better. Cheer up, you can do it. Exams paper coming back tomorrow so you know you have more to go. Part of life, so vivien ,move on! Trust yourself, you know you will be able to set free one day... someday I will...

Labels: Feeling Useless

at 11:02 PM

Went over to Vanessa's yesterday. But before, we went to Great World to shop for food to celebrate. We bought, tidbits,drinks and some ingredients for the bitter gourd shop and of course lots of sushi and sashimi! We were darn embarrassed at the supermarket because we were like talking and talking while we were paying the bill so when we finished,she just push the trolley away and we just started walking and the cashier person was like " miss!miss!your things!" then my first reaction was to scold Vanessa. And she had to laugh and went back to take the things.We were like laughing like hell all the way. Then yea, we were screaming at how fresh the sashimi are and the sushi's were like saying " buy me!I need you!Buy me!" so we spent quite alot on the shop.

We wanted to eat downstairs at the pool but it started pouring heavily so we had to eat at home but it was still ok, we had loads of fun.We cheers green tea,eat sushi and sashimi together. I had a great time,I stayed until quite late. I had fun there, like I always did.Its like my second home there, no matter if I'm sad,happy or who I am,their door are like always open for me. No matter when I wanna visit them, they will always welcome me.

I always wanted to have this kind of party between both of us and finally we did. Ate alot and was like so full and yea! I tried her pimple product and was like so good,my pimple appeared to be lesser within a few hours. And we both shave our legs together in the toilet. We were laughing at how ticklish it is. We do loads of things together,crazy things especially.

And she always have this crazy thing over people touching her bed. Cause she is allergy to dusty things so she always clean her things like no one did.Even when I touch her bathtub, she have to wash it with hot water. But hey hey...guess what,I'm the only who can lie down on her bed!! Haha..she never allowed people to touch her bed but there was once where I just didnt care and started lying all around her bed.Then she had nothing to say and oops... I continue to do it everytime. Haha.. Both of us, for the second time we are going to a clinic. The first time was dentist trip,we both went to put on our braces. And tomorrow will be the second time,we are going to skin care clinic. My skin has something wrong...and her's is now better cause she went once and they gave her a 3 months medication. So she's going back tomorrow to get her medicine. And we're going together!! Excited with every trip we're going.

Like what she said, we know how to manage this friendship. And I dont know how to describe the friendship and the bondness within us. Its just how time pull us together... I cant describe. Waiting for 2morrow to come ASAP! YIPPIE!!

Labels: My Holiday's Sunday

at 12:51 PM

My Favourite song now is Copacabana by Barry Manilow! This is like the cutest and coolest song now! Haha...its a hit in the 70s but was just browsing through and heard this song. And I can still remember it is used in F.R.I.E.N.D.S when Rachel went to attend Barry's wedding as the bridesmaid of Mindy,the bride. Oh and Rachel was supposed to marry Barry but she left his at the altar and for pride's sake, Barry said that Rachel was insane. And Rachel had to make a toast on that day.. and she was like " erm... guess I have nothing more to say but.. Her name was Lola, she was a showgirl! " and started singing the song and just before the chorus she shouted " WAIT!EVERYBODY! " And everyone started singing together " Copa! Copacabana! " haha...this song is so cute!

Yea..Vanessa cant go out today so i'm stuck at home today again.Kind of disappointed but what else can I do.I guess I can stay at home a watch Detective Conan until 3 and watch my Jang Hyuk movie. I want a pink bike...badly...haha~

Oh and I bought the tickets to David Copperfield's performance already but its like $150 per person and bro bought 2. And guess what... its like suppose to be the most expensive tickets and we're like at ROW 19. Like wth?? Row 19 its like row A,B,C,D,E,F,G,H,I,J,K,L,M,N,O,P,Q,R,S IN THE MOVIE THEATRE. Oh my gosh.. I almost went INSANE when I found out that I was seated at row 19. Oh my gosh...can anyone just kill me or something? I rather spend $128 to get row 20! Does it makes a DIFFERENCE? YES! OK...ITS LIKE A ROW DIFFERENCE AND IT COST LIKE WHAT $20 DIFFERENCE! I spend money to get good seats and hell they give me those crap seats.

I'm damn pissed by this incident!

Labels: Copacabana

at 2:41 PM

No paper today, so got a day at home. Very relax, went to Great World to get tidbits and drinks. Nothing much, so I munch my tidbits and watch Detective Conan and by the way, I went to get tidbits is because there's this super exciting conan episode so for me, I have to eat tidbits while I watch my favourite show so yup. Haha... my brother may be buying me a new pink bike. Oh yea!

Oh and how I wish November come soon. Cause Im going to David Copperfield's magic show. Hope I get the most expensive tickets but its like all gone..Darn it, Should have got it earlier. I wanna sit as near as possible and wear mini skirts and low cart shirt!!! Haha...kidding. Yeah, must try to get his attention so I will be chosen and take part in the magic performance..Bwahaha! Oh yea.. how I wish he teleport me to somewhere else and bring me back, or FLY me somewhere.Or he could like invite me onto the stage and do the normal card trick or rose and pigeon trick, I dont care! I just wanna be chosen onto the stage!!!! I wanna get his autograph and I wanna be his student. How I wish I was like 20 years or 30 years older...darn it!

Oh yea and November will be my theory exam.It falls on the same day as the magic show.. yea, and I wont really be able to concentrate on the day..haha! And on November 9, I will be going to zhang hui mei's concert.She is like the superstar of my life, what would the showbiz of singer be without her??? Oh my god, her songs are like LIFE. Her songs are so LIFE and her voice sings out what we really feel deep inside. Yeah, No matter how much is the ticket,Im just gonna go. Her stage performance makes me go HIGH. November, the year of concerts and show. Anyway, this maybe a prize for my hardworkingness for my FYE?

Oh..my life is just so thrilling and exciting. Pink bike, new phone, David Copperfield, Zhang hui mei concert. like WOW! COULD MY LIFE BE ANYMORE COOLER? David Copperfield.. call me onto the stage PLEASE!

Labels: November

at 12:16 PM

Like the title,My exams officially ended today. Very happy and excited,feeling very great today. Was a little tired yesterday night but was quite ok today, everything went well, exam paper was alright, acceptable.Watched a few youtube videos when I got home. Nothing really much to talk about, just that I'm very high that I finish my exams although I have nothing planned. Oh,I planned to stay at home and enjoy. I hate to go out, although I always go Vanessa house for no reason. But ya, Its like my second home so it doesnt really count as going out.

And very good, this 2 weeks no vocal lessons. Relaxing, waiting for paper to be return. Quite happy with how I studied this term, put in 100% effort but I dont dare to say I studied very hard. Can be better... but anyway, exams are over, I can finally sleep well, dont have to worry for any paper the next day, can sleep late today cause dont have to go to school 2morrow. And I finally understood whats life about.

Everytime I feel depressed and stress and tired, I will try to stop thinking about it and do other, and the next moment I know,I feel better already and I will be laughing at how I was so depress just now.Sad things past very soon, if you can just let it go for awhile. If you think you are at the lowest point of life, dont fret, the next moment you are rising up. Cause you see, you are at the lowest point, you cant possibly go lower anymore and if you continue to fret and be emo about it, you will definitely remain at the lowest point so why not let it go for awhile and you will see something more. So ya thats more about it...

My exams ended, relieved is all I can think off now and I'm gonna sleep later.. waiting for Vanessa's call, so ya, blog tonight.. good night vivien!

Labels: Exams officially ended

at 11:53 AM

Was browsing on youtube just now and watch kang xi lai le an episode ahead,which means it will be aired later at night. Oh my gosh, chen han dian is so cute! I think he's like the cutest guy from men guo after ah ken.Haha,seriously he is so cute!

Oh yea,totally screw up my MEP paper today but oh well,its over. And there will be one more paper to go which will be Higher Chinese Paper 2. Dont have to study, so I'm quite free now..watching videos,tv and using comp and blogging of course. Yea.. couldn't really sleep last night,guess I slept too much in the afternoon.

Oh! And everyone have plans planned already for after exams. But me, I not going anywhere. It doesnt makes a difference anyway right? Its like when there are no exams, you people also never go out everyday right? Why suddenly out of a sudden say because of exams finish then must go out everyday to have fun. I can have equal fun staying at home...

Who says staying at home is boring? There's hell lot of entertainment at home. There's TV with so many channels, how could anyone possibly be bored? There are like entertainment shows, Drama series and MTV airing like everywhere. If not I can go play my piano, whoa, never possibly be bored with that and then There is something call a computer. Ok, It links me to everywhere in the World, so there are like millions of website I havent explore, millions of videos on youtube that I have not watch.. so I can rest at home and watch videos on youtube. Or Brother has alot of shows prepared for me to watch like Detective Conan ( best anime series ever created ) and like I have korean dramas DVD not even watched yet in the drawer and I have 10 seasons of F.R.I.E.N.D.S that I can just watch again and again.

The only thing I've plan to do after exams is to go Vanessa House and celebrate and gossip and have fun.. And I promise to sleep more.. and watch more TV. These are my plans cause friends are asking me out and have to reject.. And I will have more time to blog. Very good!

Labels: Holiday plans