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at 9:26 AM

Im now at Malaysia,3rd day here.Did not much here,ate nice food, bought clothes, and the worst thing was that I couldnt really sleep very well here.The pillow is so uncomfortable.And there's only one fan! And the worst thing is that I dont use air-con cause I feel very uncomfortable and then we have 3 people sharing the fan.

I've not been sleeping really enough this few days... yeah,miss talking to vanessa on the phone. And I had a really bad nightmare yesterday night.I woke up at fright at 3am. I dreamt about me in the car with my dad and bro on the road and we passed by this car accident scene and we've saw the body of the victim lying on the road and then suddenly a car was comng by at us so my dad who was driving the car dodged and guess what?We knocked over 2 guy passing by. And I could even still remember the sound made when we knocked over the person.

And my first reaction was like,"Oh...Shit."

And then I woke up. I was pretty nervous after the nightmare...went to the toilet to wash my face up.

Ok,its only the 3rd day of my holiday...dont really know what am I going to do later but I know I have to slp very soon cause my eyes are closing. But its like in the morning already...great job vivien!

Labels: Holidays

at 7:04 PM

Yesterday,while I was reading the magazine,there's this horoscope page behind and for this month,the not so great doing horoscopes,mine was rank THIRD! I was thinking," oh well,third?Not that bad..." but neither did I expected things really didnt go very well. Vanessa left yesterday morning,if you really want to know,yeah,I miss her.

Who is going to say sarcastic comments to me?Who is going to laugh with me when I say sarcastic comments?Who is going to say " 你这种人。。。 "?Who is going to talk to me on the phone for 3 hours just talking about our future home?Who is going to cook for me delicious food?Who is going to listen to my crap?Who is going to hold on the phone with me not talking but after hanging,thinking that that was the best conversation ever?I know she's coming back,but its December!Im gonna miss talking to her... And maybe she's my luck star cause after she's gone,Last night...

I couldnt sleep...I started talking to myself...( very weird,I know!) but this morning, I ate breakfast, made my way to school then went to nanyang for workshop then went lunch with friends at Plaza Singapura but after they board the bus,I was going to walk to Park Mall to take a bus home but that isle was filled with people so I went up the stairs to walk at a place where's there's not alot of people but when I wanted to walk back down to the isle.THINGS HAPPENED! I fell in an UGLY manner. I twisted my right ankle and I fell and squatted on the floor... I almost killed the people who saw!!! SO EMBARRASSING!! I promise not to ever go back there again in the next 6 months. After I fell, I definitely know it hurts but I walked as quick as possible to get away from the crowd to my bus stop but after walking awhile,I definitely knew that I sprained my ankle. There was definite pain on my ankle. Then yea... my ankle is now swollen,hurting me...

This is my first time spraining my ankle.Not a very good experience... haha ... wish me luck on my ankle!

Labels: I totally believe in HOROSCOPE book now

at 1:02 AM

Frankly speaking...Im sick of days now! I have tons of things for me to stress abouts. My rabbits gave birth again... I have like 15 rabbits now! And for hell sake...who is going to take the rabbits from me? I cant have 15 rabbits... I think I made a wrong decision in the very first place. I shouldnt have kept pets. I dont know who wants rabbits... I want to keep the number of rabbits down to 3. 15 minus 3 equals 12. Haha...I must give away 12 rabbits. Ok... 2 to my piano teacher and who is going to take away the other 10? Its stressful to keep so many pets... No one understands and Im the kind of person who wouldnt like to share this kind of things to others.

I dont want other people to pity me or what. Im always this happy,cheerful sarcastic person. Like in F.R.I.E.N.D.S,Chandler and I share the same personalities, we use sarcasm as a protection to ourself. Im always this sarcastic person...always saying sarcastic comments. And heard from someone from a TV show that people who have family problems since young will want to get married soon. Yeah, Very true. Its true that I want to get married soon.

Who doesnt want to get married soon? Ok, maybe not everyone wants to get married soon but I want. Im just like the rest of the typical girl. I think about stuff like that since young. Thinking about marrying a rich and good looking guy. Then thinking about how he propose, how many carats will the ring be, what gown will I be wearing, how will the wedding be like,where will our honeymoon be,the furnitures and decorations of our new big house.Its true that I think about stuff like that.I always want to have a heart warming family, a family that I feel like a family. And so it cause me to wanna get married and start my own family soon of course.

Is marriage really an end to all relationship? 9 out of 10 marriages end up divorced. Do I fear for that? I dont know, it really must depend on who the guy is. But I know for sure that I will do my very best to keep the marriage. And I will definitely not ask for a divorce no matter what. Unless the guy really attempt to kill me or something which I dont think will happen on me.* keep fingers cross*

But its always nice to think about beautiful marriages isnt it? Especially if you really meet a PERFECT guy..Ok you may say that im realistic or what,but look,what if you really met this great looking guy,sweet,romantic,rich and most of all, LOVE YOU! OK, its like endangered animals but its not 100% that there isnt one like this out there? There maybe one out there,just waiting for you? Imagine you going out to a grand party with him, wearing a white gown, holding to a class of red wine, tasting it like you're an expert. And you hold his hands tightly with him and he will show you around to his clients and friends.

Isnt it perfect? Im only 14 but im moving on to my future as days past. But the disadvantage is that what if everything just isnt as perfect as I thought it would be? What if the guy isnt rich at all? What if we lead a hard life after that?? I tried not to think about it but this things still pop up sometimes...what if here...what if that!

Anyway...Im just really stress and I need a place to express. I seriously need to give 10 rabbits away.Omg... can anyone just kill me right now?Im dying because of my rabbits. Im not a good owner. Im sorry for that so the only thing I can do now is to find a better owner and let them lead a better life.I try not to be so down at night because every time when midnight strikes, when everyone goes to sleep, I alone will start to think of stuff.Lots of stuff.Family,rabbits but most of all is my family stuff that are driving me mad.

I look at some encouragement words of internet to cheer myself up. How desperate is that?? But true enough, I saw this sentence which strikes me.
" A diamond is a lump of coal which do well in great pressure. "
This sentence really strikes me. Yeah...I know I can pass this barrier very soon!

Stop thinking so much!

Labels: Sick of days now