 Thursday, November 15, 2007
 at 1:02 AMFrankly speaking...Im sick of days now! I have tons of things for me to stress abouts. My rabbits gave birth again... I have like 15 rabbits now! And for hell sake...who is going to take the rabbits from me? I cant have 15 rabbits... I think I made a wrong decision in the very first place. I shouldnt have kept pets. I dont know who wants rabbits... I want to keep the number of rabbits down to 3. 15 minus 3 equals 12. Haha...I must give away 12 rabbits. Ok... 2 to my piano teacher and who is going to take away the other 10? Its stressful to keep so many pets... No one understands and Im the kind of person who wouldnt like to share this kind of things to others. I dont want other people to pity me or what. Im always this happy,cheerful sarcastic person. Like in F.R.I.E.N.D.S,Chandler and I share the same personalities, we use sarcasm as a protection to ourself. Im always this sarcastic person...always saying sarcastic comments. And heard from someone from a TV show that people who have family problems since young will want to get married soon. Yeah, Very true. Its true that I want to get married soon. Who doesnt want to get married soon? Ok, maybe not everyone wants to get married soon but I want. Im just like the rest of the typical girl. I think about stuff like that since young. Thinking about marrying a rich and good looking guy. Then thinking about how he propose, how many carats will the ring be, what gown will I be wearing, how will the wedding be like,where will our honeymoon be,the furnitures and decorations of our new big house.Its true that I think about stuff like that.I always want to have a heart warming family, a family that I feel like a family. And so it cause me to wanna get married and start my own family soon of course. Is marriage really an end to all relationship? 9 out of 10 marriages end up divorced. Do I fear for that? I dont know, it really must depend on who the guy is. But I know for sure that I will do my very best to keep the marriage. And I will definitely not ask for a divorce no matter what. Unless the guy really attempt to kill me or something which I dont think will happen on me.* keep fingers cross* But its always nice to think about beautiful marriages isnt it? Especially if you really meet a PERFECT guy..Ok you may say that im realistic or what,but look,what if you really met this great looking guy,sweet,romantic,rich and most of all, LOVE YOU! OK, its like endangered animals but its not 100% that there isnt one like this out there? There maybe one out there,just waiting for you? Imagine you going out to a grand party with him, wearing a white gown, holding to a class of red wine, tasting it like you're an expert. And you hold his hands tightly with him and he will show you around to his clients and friends. Isnt it perfect? Im only 14 but im moving on to my future as days past. But the disadvantage is that what if everything just isnt as perfect as I thought it would be? What if the guy isnt rich at all? What if we lead a hard life after that?? I tried not to think about it but this things still pop up sometimes...what if here...what if that! Anyway...Im just really stress and I need a place to express. I seriously need to give 10 rabbits away.Omg... can anyone just kill me right now?Im dying because of my rabbits. Im not a good owner. Im sorry for that so the only thing I can do now is to find a better owner and let them lead a better life.I try not to be so down at night because every time when midnight strikes, when everyone goes to sleep, I alone will start to think of stuff.Lots of stuff.Family,rabbits but most of all is my family stuff that are driving me mad. I look at some encouragement words of internet to cheer myself up. How desperate is that?? But true enough, I saw this sentence which strikes me. " A diamond is a lump of coal which do well in great pressure. " This sentence really strikes me. Yeah...I know I can pass this barrier very soon! Stop thinking so much! Labels: Sick of days now xoxo, Happy thoughts! |
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