Van came back today.We talked on the phone as usual.We talked about future and stuff and how fast our life had been.Within a year's time,I'll be taking my O level papers.And she reassured me that she's going off to England.I knew that long ago but days passed pretty quickly and its just a year to go and we'll be going separate ways.

Even though I knew,deep down inside,I still think that she might stay and we can continue to lead our life till we're adults and be best friends forever. We have been with each other for 9 years,10 years soon.But soon after our 10th anniversaries,we might have to celebrate it alone.

I cant describe how I feel right now.I know this is the best for her,and I want the best for her too.I want her to be success too.This is what she really wants to do but I would have to part with her.You must be really sad too isnt it?I know you will.We will be really lonely by then even though life continues.

I know this isnt the end of the world yet,we still get to call each other,contact.but it would be really different isnt it?Not being able to call you whenever I want to,not being able to go to your house and slack,not being able to take neoprints with you at cineleisure.There are so many many many things that we cant do together in the future.Are you afraid?I am...

I probably wouldnt be able to send you off i guess.I want the best for you but i dont wish to let you go too.I know even though you are at the opposite end of the Earth,we will still be best friends.I know I will.I know you will too.I just cant imagine sending you off.I always wanted days to pass asap but now,how I wish the time stops here forever.

We had walk through 10 years side by side together.You told me that you're not coming back.Its a big blow even though I knew it long ago.We may not meet each other in many many years.I really hope things go well for us... I know even though we're in different countries,we are still best friends.I can visit you when Im free,you can do so too.We will lead our life's separately.But the sad thing is,I'd really wanted you to participate in my future life too.Spending our JC times,going to the same university,getting a bf,married,kids...so many things that I've thought we would participate in.

I just wanna say that you mean so much to me.Actually,you're not my best friend all these years,you're my family already.You've done so much for me,and we've done so much together.You know the appropriate words and time to cheer me up,you understand what I wanna say just with one glance,you participated in my life.I dont know if you had thought of this before but have you ever thought that what if you and I hadnt know each other all these years.What would our life be? I knew I wouldnt turn out like these.

Although I want the best of you,but Im kinda selfish this time.I hope you dont have to go. But if you have to,I promise I wont send you to the airport.Its not that Im angry or what,Its just that,its too hard to let you go.Dont really know what Im saying already,tears can flood my room right now.

Even if you really have to go,the only requirement is to be successful.By then,I will be really happy for you.Be really successful by then alright?I will be very proud of you.

We really have to cherish every moment we have right now.Good night.