Hey...didnt really did much during this holiday! Didnt even enjoyed a single bit except for the big and comfortable king size bed! I wish I could enjoy every bit of it but...i cant! I think Im gonna have split personality after this holiday...now...I wanna go home.

I wanna leave this place...I wanna go home! To a place where I know.Where Im comfortable...where I live. I dun want holidays~I want to be like normal days where I talk on the phone non stop. slacking in classes and talking to friends...I dun want a holiday! Or maybe holiday as in lying in bed...watching TV,playing computer,talking on the phone. IN SINGAPORE! In my home.

Its not that Im bored here...is that I have my own troubles to settle.EVERYDAY. Cant anyone just pity me or allow me to rest for a while? Sick and tired of being their pets! I wanna leave this place...I want to be alone sometimes...sometimes just lying down in my bed ALONE, thinking about stuffs and memories I had with friends...its enough already! I dun want expensive things,I dun want fame,I want to be myself for once...I havent done it yet!

I dun even know that if the day would come.What keeps me enjoying?watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. enjoy watching them acting and laughing.I dunnoe what to say...I wanna go home but hey...just a reminder,Im only here for my second day! Holy piece of shit! I cant swim coz im having my period! I cant eat anything spicy coz im sick and what? Now I feel like going home...I feel like playing the piano! I feel like lying and hugging my soft toys...I even feel lke getting irritated by my brother!

But hey...I couldnt go back! Dad's gonna be disappointed.Mum's..I dun wanna talk about it anymore..!nothing's going right...everythings is at the wrong path! I wish I'd never come at first but ... told you I have no choice coz I have to make my dad happy.I dun wanna disappoint anyone! When he hears that im going to malaysia to visit him! He was like so excited...he even went around introducing me to his other friends that im his daughter yesterday!

I dunnoe what to do...seriously! Teach me...